Pensamientos de la Playa

I'm over livejournal. It is boring, because people are boring. I am no longer an active participant. Goodbye

Current Mood: apathetic
Current Music: none I'm at work

So today Nima called me, while I was at Natalie's, ahh. And when we were working on our dumb project, I checked my email, and I got something from Alberto! Natalie's house is good luck.What will I do when I actually need to choose between the two? Nah, that wont happen, on is in CR and the other in Berkeley. Nima always puts things into perspective and makes me feel better about where I am. I was having a shitty day not thinking I could make it through a 5th year, even though I have to, and he made me feel more optimistic about it. A bad day turned, well, perfect :)

Current Mood: flirty
Current Music: Maná

Last night Rita and I went to Salsa night at Cal Poly. It was so fun. It's like a high school dance all over again, but better. So many people were there. I definately suck, but going more will only be good for me. And I think I'm gonna take more private lessons in CR in December. There was this guy Tony who was toatlly flirting with us, a member of salsa club, and he gave us free salsa club tshirts, to model them for selling. We went early to help them set up and so we didn't have to pay, and we got to meet all the salsa club members. We're going to go to the meeting on Tuesday and we're going to go on the salsa cruise november 6th! We stayed the whole night, until 12! We danced with all different guys, it's kind of a meat market! It will be a great way to meet more people, cool ones, and some nice ethnic guys... I told Rita we have to join Craig's list to meet salsa partners to go on the cruise with us. There were some definate hotties last night. I danced with this guy, Arturo, from Oaxaca, Mexico... and Kokou, and Tony, and coutless others. I wanted to dance with the pros who came, but I felt too stupid, even though they were there to help out and teach. By the end of the night when a lot of people had left, Rita and I were getting asked to dance left and right. I am not quitting with salsa, I need to get really good, like the chicas in Costa Rica... I love this!

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Current Mood: determined
Current Music: Cheyanne

I don't know how I'm going to make it through a fifth year at Cal Poly. I need to get out of SLO. I went out last night for my first time since being back in SLO. First, F&P had a $10 cover, so we went to McCarthy's an everyone there was just so drunk and gross, as usual. So then we go to Blue, and who should I see there, but the bitchy ex roommates. Then I turn around to see Fil, who looks me right in the eyes, and does even say anything to me. So I say something to him, and who does he say he came with?! The bitches. And I had called him earlier this week/yesterday and he hadn't called me back. Because he was hanging out and busy calling the bitches back. I definately am not into him anymore. At all. SLO is too small. Isn't going out supposed to be your escape from those you dont want to see? I wish I lived in Berkeley. Living in CR is going to be hard too, cos it's going to be like that, seeing the same people all the time since it's so small. But at least I'll be there, not here. SLO sucks. Sometimes, I wish I were still in Oregon. I got an email from Lizzy recently, and Allison called me a 12 last night to sympathize about Fil. When Heather was here, I'd call her all the time, visit her, and I talk to Linnet at least once a week. I feel like all my best friends from college are in Oregon. Here I have Kristin, but she graduates after this quarter, and Nicole already graduated. And Natalie graduates at the end of this year. Next year at CP is going to suck.

Current Mood: cranky
Current Music: Music From Felicity (REminders of Oregon)

So, I'm in school again, in SLO again, and not in CR anymore. That last fact is the saddest one. But, good news, I'm going back Dec 8th! I'm gonna spend Christmas with my Tica families, which I think will be a really great experience. And I decided to drop my one hard math class this quarter, cos really, who wants to take analysis right after they get back from Costa Rica? Or, who wants to take analysis ever? I had a date with Nima last night, the guy I met in France two years ago, and haven't seen him since. He is going back to school next fall, and he said when he was a senoir he was sick of genetics, his emphasis, and just wanted to get through it. Just like me. Hmm. And he said now, if he could, he would have changed it. Should I really change my major my last year? Am I that crazy? I don't think so. I'll put myself through the torture. huh? Maybe if I changed to stats? No, that would be just as bad. And we don't have a spanish major, so I can't do that, and modern languages? I don't like literature, in any language, I just like speaking other languages. I think, I think I will keep with math. Maybe I just don't like upper division classes. But really, who does? Definately not going to grad school in anything but epidemiology....

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: aaliyah is in my head

Well, to anyone who actually reads this, which I'm pretty sure is still just Gracie and Heather and Greg too, at least I think, I'm not going to post while I'm in Costa Rica. I'd rather not EVERYONE read all my previous entries, and e-mail is something that people will check more often and something that everyone can respond to. Soo, you'll hear from me in the Fall . . . byebyebye ;)

Current Mood: nervous
Current Music: Sarah McLachlan

I'm at Noelle's house using her wireless internet, so it's easy to update. Not like I've been doing anything. Last night was Noelle's 21st b-day. I got her hammered. She had 11 drinks. Hmm, I think she maybe should have had more. We went to Dakota, the gay bar in SC, it is soooo fun! I love it there. It's my fav SC bar. We had blow job shots and a drink called throw me down and fuck me real hard. Alyssa would probably like that drink a lot. Her 21st was on tuesday. Oh, and I bought Tracy a drink too cos it was her 21st on Wednesday. I'm 21st birthdayed out. Well, until September when it's finally Jeseka's b-day!

So today when I stop feeling so hungover I'm going to go down to SLO. I really want to see Fil again before I leave. He's so cute and different and I can't stop thinking about him. I've been listening to the country station. Yep, that's how crazy obsessed I am. Jeseka and I are gonna make a CD of funky love songs about Ben and Fil, they will be hippy reggae songs and country songs, and flowy pretty love songs. I want to take Fil to see the Melodrama tonight. And I want to see the Notebook, cos it's a cheesey romantic movie. And I want to see Spiderman with him. Basically, I want to do everything with him now.

Okay, Noelle is going to take me home, so I can get ready to go to SLO and kiss Fil. Ahhh, Fil's kisses. :)

Current Mood: hungover
Current Music: none it makes my head hurt

So I finally made out with Fil, that's how he spells it. It was so great. I had so much fun. I want to make out more often. But, I got sick. Hmm, how'd that happen? Well, I got a little out of control and made out with Kurtis, someone I had just met, the following night. And where does Kurtis happen to be from? From SLO. At least he goes to UCSC. So far though, Fil is in the lead. Except for the fact that he's friends with my roommates, and his ex (at least she's moved out already) roommate is friends with my exboyfriend! Why can't I just date without these past relationships haunting me???? Oh Fil is such a good kisser. But stupid Kurtis got me sick and now I can't make out with Fil. :( Bummed.

Current Mood: sick
Current Music: Coldplay - The Scientist

I'm getting so nostalgic. I'm packing, and everyone is graduating. I'm going through my clothes, and I haven't since HS, so I'm remembering wearing all these old clothes that need to be gotten rid of. Then I looked through my high school photos. Then I talked to Sarah from high school. Then, I'm talking to Gracie, and remembering freshman year which felt like yesterday seriously, and really, it was 2 years ago!!! OMG! I can't believe it was 2 year ago that I left my Oregonian frenz. I cried. Aww, it was so sad going to ice cream with people on my last day. Andy, Tara, Missie, Linnet and Allison. I cried when I said goodbye. I thought I didn't make friends in Oregon, but my DeCou girls are 'decouest'!!! Hahaha, I remember when me and Linnet and Lizzy TPed the hall. And waking Heather up from 'phone sex' but I didn't know it was that at the time. And Missie peeing in the shower when other people are in there! EWWW, can you believe she did that?? I was the best at distracting everyone. Aww, I'm just getting too nostalgic. I need to pack, but I want to reminisce!! I don't even know how to speel that word, help me Heather!! Aww Heather I miss you. Here's the plan for September, you'll come down to SLO with Allison as soon as I'm back from CR, and then we'll go up to Oregon and go to Kells and then me and her (and you if you have time) are gonna go up to BC to see Linnet. Aww, that will be so nostalgic and fun. Awww!!!! Remember my 'Nostalgia' CD that I made frosh year? I should listen to that.

Current Mood: nostalgic
Current Music: Two Hot guys: Craig David and Usher

Yay, I'm done with finals. But all of a sudden I got super stressed out tonight. I need to move out in a week, which is a lot of time, but I have SO MUCH TO DO during that time, like go to Santa Cruz for 2 days for Cielle's graduation and to go to my elementry school's closing farewell (tear). So basically I need to have everything packed up before I go on Saturday. That gives me two days. Its feels like finals all over again. Then of course after I move out I still need to hang around here for a couple of days for work, and to spend time with peeps I wont see until next year. Then as soon as I get to it's boom boom boom. Did I really just say peeps and boom boom boom in the same sentence?? Father's day, Alyssa's b-day, Noelle's b-day, get ready for Costa Rica, leave for Costa Rica. I had this really great idea of going to see Heather in between that time but now I don't know if it will work since I leave July 4th, and Noelle's b-day is June 26th . . . I hope I can come up though sweetie, I want to see you before Africa. Oh man, so much to do . . . but for all of today, today was my break. I'll start tomorrow. Now it's time for a movie and some sleep. I love Usher. He's such a player, but if I had the chance, I'd sleep with him too.

Current Mood: complacent
Current Music: Burn & U Got It Bad - Usher

I spent an unusually long amount of time on the phone today with the United reservations lady. She was so excited about my trip and found all these flights for me and stuff. There's all this beuracratic BS that I have to do (because of my stupid 2 last names) and she explained it all to be very nicely and was very helpful. She was so escited about my trip and asked about what I was studying at Cal Poly and talked about her daughter who went to Costa Rica. Usually it's all business with those people, but she was very human! Then I called the school to make a payment and the guy I talked to was so excited about my trip too. He said I have to go river rafting. That shit freaks me out, which is why I can't wait to do it!! I told him I want to do all the things I never thought I would. And he said the only problem I'll have while there is that I wont get to do everything, because no matter how long you stay you can't do everything. But, I can't wait to do as much as possible. Anyway, both of those convos made me want to screw finals and jump on a plane right now!

Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Let it Burn - Usher

You know you're ready to move out when you'd rather sleep at the library. . . 16 days!

I decided to change my look since I'll be going to Costa Rica soon. The picture is of Playa Tamarindo, which is near where I'll be staying for 2 weeks in Playa Flamingo.

Nicole gave me a good word to describe Janet. Apathetic. If she really cared about being my friend, she wouldn't have let any of this roommate crap get in the way. But she did, because she's just a follower, and doesn't care about her past, only her present. I would sort of like to talk to her about all this junk by the time I'm moving out, but maybe I just want to be apathetic too?

On a really happy note about a friend who is the complete opposite of apathetic, I got to talk to Allison on IM today and she gets back July 15th! Too bad I leave for Costa Rica the 4th, and so wont get to see her until August or September :( But that's okay, the point is I get to see her in 3 months, which is less time than the amount I haven't seen her for!

And what's this business about the potential threat of another terrorist attack this summer? Um, if anything, it would happen on July 4, which is when I leave on my plane to another country . . . at least it's a harmless country? I'm a little nervous and skeptical about all this. Why can't they just tell us that they're gonna kill us all? Then I could go to Costa Rica now and not have to take my finals :)

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: All I Really Want - Alanis Morisette

Last night was really fun at Kells, but it would have been funner had Heather been able to stay! Stupid housing!!! I hate them! They stole my party buddy! My nephew is super cute. I love him. He says cow, doggy, kitty kitty, juice, pig, goat, and other cute words. And he loves to read. He bring you books and sits on your lap. Aww, I'm gonna miss him! At Kells Bri and I got a picture with the irish bagpipers, had a car bomb, a bidi and another beer, a Kells lager. Now I'm watching Princess Bride, it is now on AMC, it's a classic! Come my love, I'll tell you a tale, of a boy and girl and their love story, and how he loved her oh so much. It's such a greatlove story. I wonder what my roommates have done to my things now. I'll be moving out soon, June 16, only a few more days. OMG, I'm babysitting while my sister and bro in law go on a date, and so I wanted to make some french toast, and there some smoke I guess and the smoke alarm went off (baby Aaron asleep). Oh, I totally freaked. Everything's ok now and he's back asleep easily. And, through all that, there is no syrup, so no french toast. Stupid me. So, I'm to find something else for dinner, a little more low maintenance.

Current Mood: ditzy

So this Haiku works well:

Current Mood: restless

Current Mood: cheerful

I love the sheep on the homepage who's name is Frank and goes Baaaah. That's how I feel, baaaaah. School totally sucks until June 9. That's when my last final is. This week is super busy. I was hoping that it wouldn't be, because now I'm free from kid duty. Paper Thursday. Homework tomorrow. Quiz (and a lot of reading to do before) tomorrow. Midterm Friday. Then up to Portland I go. The parents are back, and I have my life back. But I miss the kids. I miss the house too. I love those kids. As stressful as last week was with the kids, it was so nice to be with them. I feel so comfortable at their house. Taking care of the kids was definitely good birth control, and it also made me realize how much I want to have kids in the furture and how much time I want to devote to them. I went home last night really quick for the first time, and I stayed at the Janni's again last night even though the parents are back. Soon it will be back to the college house again for me. Only one month left. I hope I can make it. My roommates had a box sitting outside my bedroom door that said on it "this stuff is owned by Meghan." So, are they trying to kick me out already or what? They are so immature. I didn't get to see what was in the box because I was just running in to grab something qucikly. Ya. I went to Blue last night to meet Kristin and Nicole. When I left, I went back to my car to get something for Nicole, and she drove around to get it and I turned on the car for the heater. So then I get out to give the stuff to Nicole, and I leave the car on, door locked, keys in ignititon. So, that's why I was just running in and out of my house really quickly. But in other exciting news, I made my reservation for school in Costa Rica!!! I am SO excited. I get a confirmation in a couple days then I get to buy my plane ticket!! Then I'll need is a new suit and a tan! :) I gotta get through this next month. After that I can just pack up my things, move out, spend time with the kids, do things for people's graduations, and do fun things for Alyssa and Noelle's 21sts, take a father daughter drive to Portland, and get ready for Costa Rica, and then go to Costa Rica! I don't know if I'll make it, but I guess I better get started on this week and then it will be a lot smoother until finals. (I hope).

Current Mood: tired

A single mom going to school, that is. This is hard.

I hope that in the future I'll be a good Mom. Right now I don't know if I am. . . I picked up Roman only a couple minutes late and he had to go to the bathroom really bad I guess, and he couldn't hold it. It was #1 and #2. Well, I guess I got my payback because I had to clean up his clothes . . . Aside from that things have been good. I love these kids.

Except for yesterday. Kaile is really trying to push me. And I feel like a total push over. Yesterday I was going to pick her up at track at 3:45, but she wasn't there. I talked to the coach, and he said that she hadn't shown up. I was SO worried. But then I finally saw her, and she thought I would just be so cool with her going to watch the boys wrestling practice. Ya, ok MAYBE if she had told me where she would be before she went. At the same time though, she ditched to go watch ~Corbin~ wrestle, her "boyfriend." Soo, I was a little pissed at her. I had a talk with her last night though, and I think it went well. I hope. I told her that I'm willing to be more lienient than her parents, but she needs to respect that I am here to take care of her and that she's my responsibility, and she'll only get independence if she's honest with me. So, hopefully that well.

I also hope I'm not condoning any bad behavior. They're Jehovah's Witnesses, and not supposed to have boyfriends when they're 14. I don't think it's a big deal cos it's just a jr. high thing, like they really only call eachother boyfriend/girlfriend and don't see eacho other except at school. Which is another reason why I was mad about her going to the wrestling thing, because that (a) makes it more of a relationship and I don't want her doing that behind her parents backs, and (b) she ditched something important for a guy. Sooo, I told her those things too. I hope we have an understanding now.

And, I totally spoil the kids cos I just took Kaile to buy a shirt (but made her pay for it) and bought Roman some really sweet candy.

But if you really want to know how much of a mom I'm turning into, well, I found myself reading AOL parenting about disciplining adolescents. Ya, so with all this practice, I better be a good mom when it's my turn.

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Usher - You Remind Me